Not sure how to begin this to be honest, it’s been a while since I wrote one of these. But it feels good to be back. I wrote this poem ( or almost poem, not sure how it works!) when I was feeling discouraged and my hope is that it will be an encouragement to someone else. Bare with me I wasn’t planning to share when I wrote it so it’s a bit ….. raw for lack of a better word.
Where are you?
Oh Lord, I am on the verge of giving up save me.
I have faith but not much, it couldn’t surely amount to anything!
Lord I need you, be not far from me.
This heart of mine is weary and tired. I can’t go on.
It Feels like I have been walking in the darkness for so long,
my eyes have adjusted to the dark.
I have grown comfortable in my weariness and sadness.
It’s been a while since I sat in your presence and left your closeness.
Where are you oh Lord? Where are you?
My eyes have spilled about a thousand tears and still I find no comfort.
Your word says, “blessed are those who morn for they will be comforted”.
Oh Lord, be my comfort.
I don’t know about you, but most times I have this temptation to pretend that everything is okay even before God. Which is funny because he already knows everything! But I am learning to be honest with God. I don’t know if maybe you’re feeling some type of way and you feel like you need to first sort that out before coming before God. This is just a friendly reminder God can take your honesty and he sees you ( not in a creepy way or anything), and God’s love won’t be lessened because of your negative feelings. ” God is not in love with a cleaner version of you. His love for you right now is steadfast, and he is inviting you into a relationship with him” Matt Chandler.
I am still learning and while I wait on him amidst discouragement, I will choose to worship despite my feels ( or at least try!).
“But I have trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord because he has dealt bountifully with me” Psalm 13:5-6